Time and Motion, Symbols and Semblance

I am fascinated by symbols. In ways, each symbol we appropriate goes a certain distance towards unearthing the "who we are" at any given moment and time. Our tangential velocity, so to speak, at any given time t.

Of course this is merely a gesture in a world of such mutability and rapid fire change. Not that the world is this way by any characteristics that it possesses itself. In totality, our non-static way of life owes its existence to our conceptions of time.

You may have heard the argument for time as a construct, and not something that inherently exists. In some ways this is true--when we try to quantify time we are really only approximating locations. We don't show up to the meeting because the meeting is at 7:00--the meeting is at 7:00 because that's when everyone--including Johnson--can occupy that space without causing conflict with other obligations.

In the sense of personal development, though, and because of our mortality, the way we view time is a measurement of personal progression, a way of organizing experience, and discovering information through the lens of cause and effect. I wanted to be a computer programmer, and then I researched computer programming and was disillusioned. Something happened in this exchange, and it goes deeper than "it didn't sound interesting anymore." There was a reason that it no longer sounded interesting. There were components of my identity that could not exist in conjunction with the profession of computer programming.

These are my symbols. Were my symbols. Are my symbols. Were my symbols. You see?

It's not a chaos equation--there is some degree to which we appropriate and maintain certain symbols over others. There are priorities that we place in our lives.

The meaning is circular when you approach the beginning of one's existence--from where did certain affinities stem? One might be quick to suggest that parents, both biologically and ethnocentrically, create this foundation upon which we build ourselves. But that's just as circular as your own identification within a group, because the evolutionary chain of characteristics that create your parents come from their parents, and so on and so forth. In this then we must at some base level share a resemblance with one another, or if not, a similar base for experience when traced back and back and farther yet back.

Its always of interest to me, though, which symbols I carry with me at any given time. Sometimes I think, and wish, if I could just get it all down once, it would be so easy to maintain as things come and go. It's not like getting a tattoo which is expensive, uncomfortable for a week, and then potentially more expensive and more uncomfortable if you change your mind far too late. It's just a piece of paper, or a word document, or an excel spreadsheet, or... something. Anything.

How hard could it be? Writers constantly pour themselves out on the page, and I've enough material to fill columns and columns.

Is the work too hard? Too involved? Is laziness a symbol I've yet to purge?

Not if I can help it.